Do I want to?
HELL NO!!
Am I going to try?
Yes… but reluctantly…
Will it work?
I’m not sure. I kind of hope it doesn’t but I kind of hope it does.

I’ve spent too much time “sitting” around. It’s partly my fault for not saying something sooner. But now that I have and someone else has too, it’s just too much. She’s gotten the first text FROM him, and far more intresting convos through text. But if I keep truckin’ along, there’s that possible chance things will go the right way. Possible chance. I’ve tried to do this (trying to stop) many times before, all becoming non-successful (obviously). I’m not sure what’s going to happen. It sucks we can’t really decide who we do and don’t like. Gah. I’m just weighing my options.