08.19.09
Thinking too much
School is lame. Life is lame. Too many decisions. Too many activities.
Should I drop Chem for Botany and Animal Development? Should I do tennis AND golf? Should I just do tennis? Can I just manage the golf team? What exactly will APUSH and ALAC bring? Did I take too many hard classes? What have I set myself up for?
I’m too scared to find out. Junior year is going to blow, I can already tell. Good thing I have people to talk it out with. What on earth would I do without them?! And thank goodness for this blog when I am in desperate need.
Here’s the low down on just several situations/problems:
1) The whole “JAM” situation.You-know-who plays the lovely sport of golf and was rather fantastic last year taking the number one spot at our school. You-know-who, the girl, is probably goingto do golf this year BECAUSE of you-know-who, the guy. The guy SAYS he’s suppose to help out with the team this year (so the girl told me). I’m tired of her dangling him in front of my face. Whether it’s on facebook, over text, or her going shopping with her other friends, I am f-ing tired of it all. It hurts and I’m not sure how she cannot possibly think it doesn’t. So yes, I am jealous. And I do NOT want her on that team. That brings me to number 2.
2) To tennis or to golf? Tennis is pretty much my thing; anyone could tell you that. Golf is something I just sort of picked up this summer. Of course it was motivated by a certain someone; I really do LOVE it BUT by no means am I good at it. They say I could do both and that’s what I would probably do since there is NO WAY on this earth that I would leave tennis, especially since the season has already started, that just would be rude. I think I could do it… but talk about the stress!! Could I manage it? I’ve got SO many things going; with practice and just the hard classes alone are going tobe killer. That’s why I thought of managing the team. That way, I can still “golf” and sort of be there with the you-know-who’s AND be an active member of the tennis team. That’s a great day for everyone.
3) The hard classes and junior year.Their names? American Literature and Composition, AP-US History, and Pre-AP Chemistry. Oh man. I’ve asked seniors how hard some of these classes were and I am truly scared. The class that I’ve considered droppingis the Chem class. I love Mooney but is it worth all the BLAH!? Plus, I can be a lazy person, and you’ve got homework every night in that class!! And science isn’t much of my thing. I’ve considered dropping it for Botany and Animal Development. Botany, I hear, is a “coloring” class AND is weighted. Animal Devel is taught by Heide, possibly one of the coolest teachers but yet is extremely unorganized and forgets things sometimes. I’ve heard it’s an easy class AND it’s weighted also, I believe.
THE CONCLUSION.
For part one, I’m still not sure what to do there. I’m still waiting for those feelings to pass. Although I really do want to stay in touch and be friends with the guy. I was even considering asking him to go to the receptionportion of my cousin’s wedding, which is in approx. a month. For part two, I am definitely sticking with tennis. I would LOVE for the chance to play ONE tournyor at LEAST manage the girls golf team… even managing the boy’s team would be great, maybe even both seasons. I could care less if I was on JV. Just being on the team get to see him and to watch the “competition”. For part three, as much as I’d love to drop it, I have a feeling I’m sticking with chemistry. 
I like how most of these problems intertwine with each other… high school… UGH. Luh-aaaame.
05.31.09
So it’s been a while, eh?
Summer is finally here. Well it’s been approximately four days into it, so maybe I’m a little late. This year’s been one I definitelywon’t forget anytime soon. It has been filled with so many great times, horrible times, and times where you don’t feel the need to remember. I’ve learned things that will be needed but will be forgotten, things that are random and useless, and things that will help me along my “journey of life.”
I’ll remember my second block of AP World History the most. Gosh, I think it’s safe to say that more than half of the people in there felt like they were going to die. It’s safe to say that this is the first class that anyone actually studied for. Lame but true. 
I’ll always remember all the bickering and “ROASTED” chats. And those random convos Mr. Siskwould have with us before class started that wasted at least a good twenty minutes of class. Those were pretty amazing.
My second favorite class I ABSOLUTELY LOVED was my Pre-AP English II class. Not only did I learn to become a better writer, but my teacher was amazingly amazing, and lunch was this block. HA. In this classroom, I learned that “To Kill A Mocking Bird” was not a boring book. I learned of those “:) Face Tricks” that give a voice to writing (even included in this blog! Look how that worked out Ms. P!). And I learned that Mariah would like a pickle for a nickle. Lunch was probably one of the best parts to 5th block. I’ll miss having so many friends in my English class. I’ll miss freaking out about the papers due.. although I’m sure Am. Lit. and Comp. is going to require a lot of papers too.. yikes.
I’ll miss those little moments. Like orchestra FIRST SEMESTER. If only I knew then, what I know now. Something would have been different. But hey, I gained a friend in the process of not knowing. 
I’ll miss having that “cute kid” (who’s initials are ASW) in my Spanish and English class. I’ll miss the “HOT SUB” who really is the hottest person to walk the earth. Hopefully he’ll sub next year too. Man, what a hot piece of meat!! I most definitelywon’t miss all the drama that came with the tennis team. Hopefully next season won’t any worse.. but I have a feeling it will be. LAME. I’ll miss the BEST foreign exchange student ever, BOONG! We were the “Asian Sensations” and we were amazing. I’ll miss the trip to MIZZOU for state for music.. and all the walking we did. And those crab legs at dinner and the “crab legs, ice cream, and MORE crab legs!!” that that someone ate. And… all those choir concerts that I attended. And those other musical concerts.. AND being in the pit for “Annie”. You’re never fully dress without a smile!! Then randomly singing those songs like five months after the last show. Then all the theater kids yelling at you to stop because they’re so sick of the songs. Haha! I’ll miss the first orchestra lock-in with a limited amount of people that made it fun. Oh, and the time I wore two different shoes to school… man, that was embarrassing. And going to graduation, when I really shouldn’t have gone… just for that “one” reason. HA.
Yeah, sophomore year has definitely been one for the record books. It’s one where I can safely say that it has changed my life. It’s one where I realize that I have changed. And that life goes on no matter how much you want to push the “pause” button. Two years down, two more to go.
06.02.08
Problem.
I need to get some feelings out before I go to sleep. Because it’s going to bug me until I do.
Summer school started today. And it’s not easy sharing it with the rival school. And it’s really driving me insane. Or at least somewhat close to that. We’re not really know as the “super school” that’s GREAT at all sports, or has the BEST equipment. Or the MOST money. But seriously, to bash our school like that is really ridiculous. I can’t explain it without just screaming it..
OMG… sorry we can’t cater to your EVERY need! Just live with it for a FRICKIN MONTH! 23 DAYS! OMG. You guys should just shut the eff up… I mean everyone who went to your school last summer had to put up with the same CRAP! Sorry that we can’t make the school smaller so you can find every class you have with ease. GOSH IT MAKES ME SO ANGRY. AND please stop complaining. Sorry that I didn’t BUILD THE FRICKIN SCHOOL! What the CRAP!! Stop saying, “You’re school’s a CRAP HOLE! No offense.” RIGHT IN FRONT of ME! And just so you know that is kind of offensive. Gosh you guys are such pricks sometimes. I guess that’s why you guys go to the school you go to.
05.30.08
A Year in Review
Yesterday was the last day. But when I REALLY think about it, I truly cannot believe that I have finished yet another year of school. Everything seems to be flying by. I’m growing up so fast; cheesy but true. But anyway, here’s somethings I remember from the 2007-08 school year.
I REMEMBER:
freshman orientation. first tennis match. tennis districts. orchestra/band concerts. the faculty christmas play. first mid-terms. bottom locker. the teachers. the lunch table. skipping AR points for the first trister. my 107% in english. freshman committee thing. freshman career day. freshman awards. essays for english. yearbook fiasco. senior crushes (there were a few. soccer players. ). being sorta in the musical. FLF. male cheerleaders. pep assemblies. getting a 2 at contest. watching mythbusters in science. kendyl and her little contests at wendy’s. the tennis bus. getting up extra early to be on time for my ride. finishing a book in less than 2 weeks. a day no pigs would die. romeo and juliet. the quadratic formula song!! kirchoff’s outbursts. making food in life skills. making my mini room in life skills 2. sewing pillows. sick STDs slide show. the dumb bellringers in health. watching tv shows on my ipod in health. the stupidness of orchestra. the seniors in orch. sitting next to you-know-who (ick..). the freshman circle. cracking up in english because of carr. having a heavy backpack going home. walking home. some sick convos at lunch. having a sinking feeling in my stomach when i didnt finish my homework. senior’s graduation. getting straight A’s all year. snow days. and the last day. BEING A BEAR!
I WISH:
I wish and hope that I would stop caring so much about what others think. I hope that I will be more involved next year. I wish I could just say what i feel. I wish I would just stop procrastinating.
ADVICE TO THE NEW:
Enjoy your first year; it goes by fast. Not even kidding. Don’t use a tray, you’ll look weird. Get involved; you’ll make friends and you’ll do things you’ve probably never done. Go to the dances and games; you’ll feel bad later if you don’t. Don’t slack on your work; you’ll REGRET it. Not even kidding. And stock up on extra credit; f you take a slip, it won’t be as bad. What do you have to lose!? Watch who you talk to, remember you’re considered as a stupid freshman now.
05.14.08
5/14/08
Seniors Last Day.
As much as I think it’s unfair,
I am pretty sure that I’m going to be pretty upset when the day’s over.
05.13.08
I’m dissapointed.
So tomorrow is Seniors Last Day. Which means that there’s a senior assembly. My cousin is a senior. She said that I should go. You know, to kill time. Plus tomorrow is a block day. So today over the announcements, they say if you’re a freshie or soph. you need to get a permission slip to get out of class if you want to go. I go to the House Office after 3rd block. I say, “I need a permission slip for the senior assembly.” She ask for and writes my name down on the sheet. She says, “Are you Anita’s sister?” I tell her yes, even though that’s not true. She then logs onto the computer. It takes a while and she says, “I’m just verifying the address to make sure you guys live in the same house.” I’m thinking, CRAP. Because obviously we don’t live under the same roof. So then I blurt out the fact that I’m actually her cousin. She gives me a look and thinks about it and goes to check with one of the admins. He says, “It’s suppose to be only for siblings.” She looks at me and says, sorry. And I walk out feeling somewhat embarrassed. Walking to 4th block and while in 4th block, I ponder on what I could have said instead so that I could actually go. Here’s what I came up with:
1) Our parents separated.
2) We live in different houses because of a divorce.
3) We’re step-sisters.
4) We’re really really super close and it’s important that I be there.
I think the thrid one would have probably worked the best. Too bad I’m not good at lying. Bleh. So I’m not going to be able to see what it’s like to be a senior on Seniors last day. I really wanted to go too. Poop.
04.24.08
random thoughts.
first blog on wordpress. though I’d try it out, you know.
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well, freshman year is almost over. it kind of saddens me to be completely honest. it’s like life has literally flashed before my eyes. i mean i still remember the first day of kindergarten. and now i see all these seniors i know getting ready for graduations and the talk of colleges. and i feel the push from teachers trying cram a bunch of knowledge or random facts or whatever into our little brains. it’s like high school is a step. then when we graduate, we’re pushing off from base. if that makes any sense what so ever. but i can’t seriously believe that next year i will be a sophomore. i only have THREE more years left. it just doesnt seem real.
